you and i are changing with the seasons

although the song says 'changing', i prefer to think we're both renewing right now. i guess i'm trying to do it for the best, while you're getting worse and worse. i'm starting to figure my life out, no matter how hard it is. i'm not going to get involved with what you do to yourself or to the ones you relate. yep, i finally figured out it has NOTHING to do with me. no matter how wrong it is what you're doing, sometimes people have to go over some really bad stuff to learn the lesson, just like i did. and i if you're thinking i learned that we have to trust no one, you're so wrong.. i mean.. i learned that, indeed. but to me, it has another meaning. i learned we must know the ones we trust. we can't just go with the flow, do you get what i mean? i trusted you because i wanted to. i wanted you to like me just like i wanted her to be my friend, to not betray me. but what the hell, we never get everything we want. this time i got something i didn't expect.. and for months, i could see it. now i do. i've grown up, even if just a little bit.

aliás, se eu for me guiar pela música, and i think i know why you never get too close.. it's cause you're too scared to. when i'm with you there's no point in breathing.
fazendo um ps rapidinho só: quero deixar claro que todas as partes que parecem meio seila "in love", são falsas. não espero nada mais, e nem quero. sério, dessa vez! mas quem sabe o que é estar vazia sabe a necessidade que se tem de colocar algo (mesmo que seja irreal) para ainda assim ter drama, não? whatever, sobre isso já escrevi :)